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I'm Sorry

from :​\​​​Not! by :)Bookburner!

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This is not a story with a happy ending.
Instead this is a prologue to a collection most dissonant.
This is not who I was supposed to be.
this is a suicide note.
nothing about this is in any way cathartic.
I have no one to go to for help.
Every sentence spoke is fucking worthless.
I wish I could let my fucking feelings out.
But I'm terrified of bothering those I love.
So instead, I'll write out these feelings,
and either this will end up in a song,
or this will be one of the many letters
you'll find after my passing.
No more fucking tears left to cry.
Could this be what was meant for me?
No love or hope, just misery.
To feel love give way each day.
Sad is all I’ll ever be.
I’m sorry.
I can't figure any of this out.
I can't begin to understand what I should fucking do.
I can’t figure this out.
I can’t figure this out.
I can’t figure this out.
I wish I was dead.
Everything would be so much easier.
Everything I wish I was, I am not. 

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from :​\​​​Not!, released July 21, 2023

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